I Don't Want to be Me Anymore

I'm tired of the me that i have created, but now i have nothing to change into.
What do you do when all that you know, has no worth left in your soul.

Where do you go, to get back what you've lost, squandered and thrown away.
How do you reinvent yourself, when you have no one to look to for success.

Whats it matter when you've got nothing left, why do they stick around?
They're just waiting for the crash, the burn, total and utter failure.

Lawn seats and a bag of popcorn, front row seats for the end,
Not the end of physical life, but all that is mental and emotional.

When you are the reason for all your own failures,
Who gives a shit what they see... no way a real life jedi...

Life is a pile of steaming bullshit, a web weaved no escape
Get yours, before anyone else, and screw the inbetween

But if we all play that game, the world will become, a sorry place indeed
Why give a shit for me, when all i am, is a wasted... empty... worthless, shell... of a man

Questions for Myself

Every day I question myself, the thoughts of who I am,
Trying to make sure that I’m not living just another scam
Living my life, by any means necessary, just to get by
To stay alive, for another day, all I can do is try

Every day I question myself, the thoughts of what I am,
I don’t feel human, or even alive, my life is just a sham,
Don’t waste your time, I’m a waste of matter and space
Don’t look or remember, just try to forget my face.

Every day I question myself, the thoughts of where I am,
I’m going nowhere, but running there, living life on the lamb.
I’ve got no direction, no navigation, its just an endless night,
Wishing for something, more than myself, maybe a guiding light.

Every day I question myself, the thoughts of why I am,
I can’t figure it out, so alone in the dark, its here that I stand
Alone and drifting, trying to find someone who understands
Maybe one day I’ll find that person, true love, holding hands.

Hopefully one day, I wont question myself, ever again…

The ME Within...

I’ve noticed my life has kinda been stinkin,
So I decided to start doin some serious thinking’
I started writing, some words and a verse,
I wrote it all down, shouted a curse

Its then that I realized my life is the same

The one question that remains is simple, why?
I am in this alone, in all aspects save one,
I am my only champion, for me, I try,
Awaken anew, like the rising sun.

A fresh start again, this time, its no game

I will only change, if it comes from within
To cage or force me is a cardinal sin
Only as a whole person can I be free
Drugs are a cage, one that I didn’t see

Time to move on, grow up, stop living lame.