The Poetry Archives...

Well, here it is, the archives of my old poetry. Well, at least some of it. Theres a lot to go through and type up. These are some of my favorites from the past five or six years.

A Friends Place

Spend your life searching, for your rightful place
Truth be told, it’ll blow up in your face.

The true place to be is right side by side,
With those who will stand your day to day tide.

Brothers and Sisters, friends all the same,
But some above all, deserve more than fame.

I can’t seem to say the thoughts in my heart,
So ending this poem, is the way I’ll start.

You and Only You

A second glance
Another chance
Just to be with you
This time I hope its not
DING! End round two.

I feel wanted and adored
Loved and much more.
Safe and secure,
When life’s unsure,
I only want to be with you.

It’s been forever
Since I felt like this,
Above the masses, superior
When I’m away, It’s you I miss;
I only want to be with you.

Weekend Warrior

In and out, pulsing and throbbing,
The beat goes on, everyone dancing.

Up and down, side to side, moving to the beat.
Colors and shapes, all in moving light.
Back and forth, round and round,
Set that needle send it down.
Mix, scratch, RAVE ON!


Despair

I’ve been there, done that… but,
It happens again, as a place or a thought.

Smoked out, burned out, struck out long ago;
I gave up, said FUCK YOU! To the life I lived.
Long nights, one nights… times I don’t remember,
Cracked out, struggling on, still in love with her.

Blue Skies and Tall Mountains

We crossed mountains in our day,
To get through life, through the fray.


Struggle and triumph, gained and lost,
Victory and defeat, such an awful trail;
Sometimes it seems, a towel in should be tossed.
Only now that you are so very frail,
You realize full circle you’ve come,
Now that your day is done.

You’ve lived your life tried and true;
Now leave this coil for a sky clear blue.

The Twisted Path of Life

Awake at night, darkness enters
I’m still here, hours later.

It’s a state that never ends,
I’m only alive with thanks to my friends.

They get me through, with a hug or a laugh
I’m alive, barely, walking this twisted path.

Even though this path, will be my undoing,
I continue on, down I’m going.

A brightness appears at a fork in the path;
a way up, maybe out, now I suffer loves wrath.

A few days alter, all emotion gone,
I’m back on my path, what went wrong?

Trying to Say Goodbye

18 months, since I heard you on the phone,
Two years since I had you to hold.

I think of you often, and still I regret
Making a promise I’d like to forget.

Don’t let me do anything, in the morning I’ll regret
That night I’ll remember, never forget.
I held you close, trying to sleep,
You rolled over, with a smile I’ll keep

Moving ever closer, I held you, and you held me
A kiss and a touch, set my soul free.

When you got sick, I stayed by your side.
Daily to the hospital, I took that drive.

Now you’re gone, it hurts to say bye.
So I’ll see you later, on the other side.

Life’s Lines

Following a line that doesn’t end, through hills and valleys, twists and turns.
It’s a line that is, bitter truth; tried and true, it goes on and on.

Till that final day…

The lines are there, but you are here,
and here
is where
you are.

Resting in time, following a line that doesn’t end.

Shedding My Cocoon

Smile and a touch, I miss you so much;
I only want you, and love to be true.

I’m selfish, I know;
You give my life a perfect glow.

To hold you forever, always end too soon,
You built me a happiness cocoon.

The Heavy Load

Every day it’s different, but its all just the same;
I screw up again, my life I wish I could tame.
Promises made, to way to many;
For me to carry, way to heavy.

Something falls, I search around;
I hear you smile, I find your sound.
Looking down, towards the ground, I see you there…
Not you, down there… I want you, up here…

I screw up again, repeating forever
Trying and trying, for you even harder.


Better Things To Do

Everyone has, things that they do,
Good and bad, better and best.
Now I’ve got better things to do
Than talk and relive memories of my EX.

Impotent, incompetent, and even unimportant,
Worthless, useless, your waste of time.

Ripped it out, stomped it out,
Lonliness is my daily fighting bout.
I’ll get over it… all I need is time,
I’ve wasted 3 months waiting in line.

How much longer, till I’m finally free,
Till I can live, laugh, and be, who I want to be.

Fog of Days

In this early morning haze,
Like all the other days.
I sit here ‘for the dawn,
Thinking how my life is pawn.

The smoke of night, clears away,
Leaving my shattered soul.
Fixing the pieces, so together they stay,
Now I realize how steep the drugs toll.

Showing Who You Are

I’m a writer and a poet.
How am I gonna show it?

True to yourself, and everyone else,
it’s the only way to be.

Live your life with truth in your heart,
In time, your past, becomes your work of art.

Through a Looking Glass

Who are you, to tell me why;
these tears of hell I should not cry!

You don’t know! You aren’t me!
You don’t live what I live!
You don’t see what I see!

You haven’t sat by, as death walks away,
A friend now prisoner, in his robes sway!

You haven’t clawed your way to the top,
Only to stumble, you slip, you fall and you drop!

On your way down, only then will you see,
These pictures of you, are also of me.

The Crazy Road of Love

On the road, for endless hours;
Thinking of you, I think of flowers.
Beautiful and precious, how I feel for you,
I can’t wait to see if these feelings are true.

I can’t begin to describe how I feel…
As wounds to my heart begin to heal.
I’ve got love for family, and my friends,
I’ve got love for you, never to end.

I cherish our talks, and memories of you.
When we don’t talk, my heart becomes blue.
I cant use words to show how I feel,
Will these feelings ever be real?

Giving Up

Here I am, pushing people away,
Just because it’s easier that way.
No one to care about, no one to hurt me
You can’t really care, so just let me be.

I’m not allowed to live as myself,
I feel like a GI Joe, sitting on a shelf.
Owned by a silly, little immature boy,
Who treats my life, like his personal toy.

He ain’t happy, so neither am I,
But the difference is, I want to die.
What’s it matter to him, life or death,
Suckin down THC with his every breath.

When I leave, time to say goodbye,
Maybe for once he won’t be so high.
But that’s a pipe dream, cause he don’t care,
He just makes sure its his misery he shares.

Why keep up the fight, for my life and soul,
Only difference is, young versus old.
No more hope, no more dreams,
It’s this simple, I’m DONE…Peace-

Forever

Sometimes I can’t say, what I want;
But its not just another, debutant.
I want you to hold
I want you to kiss
I want you to hug
I want you to miss

When I say forever, its truly what I mean
I’m tired of being stuck, in the in between.
When I can’t have you to hold
When I can’t have you to kiss
When I can’t have you to hug
Its only you I start to miss.

Things I want to say, I want you to hear
But I can’t voice them, cause of my greatest fear
So I’ll whisper them while you’re sleeping, sweet nothings in your ear.

Not Titled

This is a ramble, straight from my heart
Not a titled work, or even a rough start.

I refuse to change, for anyone but me,
The reason I wont, is because I’m free.

You make me smile without even trying,
The person I was, is now slowly dying.

Things in my life are changing, each and every day
Things in my heart and mind, I only wish that I could say.

Just a little boy, and another little girl
Silly together,
Together forever,
We can conquer the world.

My Lights are gone

I’m a burned out lightbulb, nothing left to give
Im fragile and delicate, No life to live

Why should I try, to burn my passion again
Sitting, dripping, cold in the rain

I don’t want to light it, to see it snuffed
Not going to fight it, I’ve seen enough

So here I sit in the dark and the cold
With my soul feeling heavy and old.

Maybe one day, this rain will dry,
Maybe THAT day, I’ll decide to try…